Although this is the sweetest picture of my mom holding me as a baby, it makes me sad. My mom was so young and full of life. So in love with my dad and her new baby (me!!). It looks like it was a beautiful day and she probably thought she would be old and gray before she died. That didn't happen. I lost my mother to cancer 3 years ago and I still miss her everyday. It makes me sad that I can't hug her anymore. When something exciting or bad happens I literally grab the phone because I need to tell her....but then I realize that she's not there. It makes me sad that when I have a little baby she will not be there for the shower...not for the delivery...not for decorating the nursery and buying cute baby clothes....none of it. It breaks my heart. I know that she WILL be there though...just not physically. Want to know a secret? I talk to her in my dreams. It's so real and she says stuff that only I would know. I truly believe that we communicate this way. Also, dragonflies are sorta "our thing". I have always loved dragonflies and when I met Joe...boy had a dragonfly tattooed on his back....crazy huh? When my mother was dying, I asked her if she would send me messages to let me know she was OK. She said she would if she could and that I would know it when I saw it.....I see dragonflies ALL THE TIME. They are huge and they let me get so close. Now, I do not believe that my mother is now a dragonfly, but I do believe that she sends them to say "Hi Sarah...I miss you!!"
3 comments:
What a sweet post and a beautiful picture!
She's beautiful!! You look just like her too!
So sorry for your loss.
What a sweet post...and that picture is so precious! I'm sorry for your loss...I can only imagine how tough that is.
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