Let me preface this post by saying that I love my husband more than anything. I do not regret any decisions that I have made in the past, but sometimes...just sometimes...I think about how things could have been different. Today we are going to play little game of "what-if". Do you ever look at certain moments in your life and know that if a different decision had been made, things could be completely different? This post is about that.
Let's go back to high school.....that's where is all started. There was a boy. A boy that I always had a crush on. He was a little awkward....but I didn't care. He was cute and super nice. I had a crush on him all four years of high school...but I never made a move...and he never made a move. Then we became seniors. We had parking spots right next to each other. We saw each other every day...and still....he didn't make a move. He wrote in my yearbook to for me to come and visit him at the drugstore that he worked at....I didn't.
Then we went to the same college.... I started dating someone. I ended up at a local watering hole one night and who should I run into...but "boy from high school who I secretly had crushed on for 4 years". He decided that tonight was the night. Maybe he had consumed a few adult beverages...but he marched right up to me and told me that he had a crush on me all during high school. He wanted to know if we could go out sometime. RATS!!! I was dating someone now...I asked him how come he hadn't told me before and I told him that I too had a crush on him all during high school. We were just a little too late. A few years past. I saw this boy out and about and we were always friendly...but I was always dating someone. Finally one night I was single and I went to go find him. A he was dating someone (his current wife). It just wasn't meant to be...our timing was always off.
A few years later, I was in my old bedroom at my parents house. I ran across the school newspaper where everyone had done their Senior Wills. When I read his...my mouth dropped open....his said: To Sarah: all my love.....was he talking about me??!! I will never know....
We have reconnected on FB and we both have wonderful lives now...it's just funny to me that I can look back and see how things could have ended differently for both of us. It just wasn't God's plan and I am so happy everything ended up the way it did.
8 comments:
Things definitely work out the way that they are supposed to. If you HAD gone out, maybe you would have missed the opp to meet your hubby now! Or been really delayed in doing so and then you would have missed out on such good things!
Ive been there, though---it's kinda fun sometimes to think "what if..."
I agree with you, it is funny to look back on things & see what could have been....but that God didn't have that planned for a specific reason! I dated someone for 6 years...we were high school sweethearts and even dated in college. but one day I woke up and said "this wasn't in my plan" He isn't everything I said I wanted. God had that in his plan and delivered something WAY better to me!
:) I love what-ifs, lol. And how wild is what he put in his senior will?! Wow!
My first boyfriend in high school and I always came back to each other, but the other would always be dating someone else. I still consider him one of my best friends, even though he's married and with a kid and I've got my own girls now... But it IS interesting to think "what if?!"
what ifs are so creepy sometimes ... and when they say everything happens for a reason, they weren't kidding :)
He he he is that m.p.?
Crazy! Hey I saw your comment on WW and I dug out all my old stuff last night. I forgot you can calculate points for nursing mothers so I am starting it ASAP! Thanks for the reminder:)
Coming over from WILW. I really loved reading this post because I'm very nostalgic and I often think about the "what-ifs" in life. It's interesting to look back on different moments and wonder what could have happened.
What a cute post. Like you, I'm not saying I dont love my current life but I'd be lying if I said I didnt think of 'what if' every now & then. It's funny the way life turns out isn't it :)
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